RINDU

salam rindu buat rindu ku di sana,
rinduku tercipta supaya rindu dapat lafazkan
betapa rindu mencintai rindu,
walau sinar rinduku ini tak seindah impian
walau ketulusan rindu tak setulus kasih Esa,
walau ianya sukar untuk rindu miliki
hanya angan-angan yang dapat rindu semikan
bagi menjadi galang-ganti bagi mengubat rindu ku pada rindu...

deru angin bayu

sampaikan salamku pada angin bayu
agar ia dapat membawa rindu ku terus padanya
walau pohonan cinta kita sempat berbunga
namun bunga-bunga gugur sebelum tibanya musim
harapanku agar kau akan berbahagia di suatu tanah
tanah yang menjanjikan kesuburan mu kekal nun berpanjangan
walau tanah itu jauh dari ku
salamku sampaikan pada angin bayu tetap sampai kepadamu
ku doakan kau terpelihara dari lembayung binasa
aku di kejauhan mengenang detik berlalu
bersama angin deru

a year without YOU!!

My foster said that i'm kinda strong bcz i managed to pass a difficult year of his absencity. i'm kindly missed him a lot since the last time i saw him and heard you talk. almost all the wishes you asked me to do. yes! i've done almost everything accept ONE. accept new person to replace you in my almost broken half cracked heart. my heart turned to pieces since you was gone. somehow i know it's better to let you go than see you suffered.

"if you love someone, set them free,
if they come back, they're yours,
if they never don't, they never were"

"the hardest part in loving someone is knowing when to go and knowing when to say goodbye"
however, my dearest man that i ever loved, i quote this just for you.

"I loved you once, i'll love you again, even though we're not together, I always remembering you until the end"

with this i just want to state that I love You more than anyone else....( T_T)